04.01.06

Here I am at day one of Machinery of Expression.com. I hope to make this a cool little site with a lot of things to look at, read and listen to. I know in the past I haven't been very good at updating my web pages, here's hoping I get over that.

04.03.06

I have lost almost 10 pounds in about 8 days with my new low fat high protein diet (read as mostly vegan). I feel great and I am losing pounds and inches.

04.04.06

Got some stuff up in Rants and Fiction today. I am sick of this weather. I want sun. I am over cold, wet and shitty.

04.07.06

Last week I sat in on a Darkwaters set at Club Underground. Tony, Darkwaters singer, was sick so he had me and some other guys help him out in the vocal department. TJ, who use to be in Reason One, did a song. Dave, the bassist for Twice, did one. Before the set Dave and I talked for the first time in close to a year. I had seen him around town and we did the whole acknowledgement hello how are you bull shit, but we hadn’t really talked since Twice ended. I was really excited about it. I still am. The only thing that I was bummed out about after I quit Twice was that the friendships I thought I had with the other members ended. I really wanted to maintain friendships with Dave and Tony. It was important to me to keep them in my life. I made an effort, I called them left messages and for the most part they’d call back. After awhile I felt like I was the only one trying. I stopped calling to see if they’d go out of their way to call me. No one did. I moved on, but it bothered me. I always thought those guys would be the guys I would know forever. After the break-up it seemed to me like our friendship only ran as deep as the band. After talking to Dave I felt better. We ironed some things out and got of lot of shit of our chests. I hope it was the real deal. I’d really like to be able to call Dave a friend again.

04.13.06

Not much to report today. I made some minor progress on the web site this week. I still haven't decided what I want to do with the background and such.

Next week I'll be taking down the short story on the writing page and replacing it with a new one.

I came home from work yesterday to find our sugar glider mom had killed her two babies, I was devastated. The poor little things never got to open their eyes. My wife called a vet and they said it does happen; it is usually caused by stress. We are reading up on stress and sugar gliders to keep this from happening again. They do breed often, so I need to solve this issue. I am absolutely heart broken, the last baby she had was the cutest damn thing I ever saw. We gave to a friend and he is living happily. We had people lined up to take care of these two babies too. It's really sad.

04.19.06

I had a Pepsi for the first time in I don’t know how long yesterday. I didn’t like it. I use to love soda, and now I can’t do it. Ever since my stomach problems started I have been very health conscience. Soda is now on my “no” list along with red meat and foods high in fat. So far I have been pretty much vegan, but I think I may still eat some meats; chicken, fish, stuff like that. I haven’t yet, and I may never, but I am not ruling it out. It’s funny how things change, I use to be a junk food junkie and now pineapple slices and corn chips with humus dip are my junk food.

Guns Down’s recording session has been postponed indefinitely. We haven’t been practicing and I don’t want to go into the studio and waste our time or Shua’s since he’s recording us for free. I was really looking forward to spending my 34th birthday making a punk record. We’ll get it done though, just not in April. NameMeNoone is going record with Justin (Spacement) some time in June or July. I am looking forward to that. Well, I am looking forward to having a recording. I hate the actual process of recording. I have never enjoyed being in the studio. I’d love to be able to record every show and just pick the best takes from those for a record.

Working on some new fiction pieces for the site, I am never happy with what I write. I need to learn to find a stopping point and just let it go. I try too hard some times, I think, to make perfect art. And it seems like all I do is rob my work of its voice. Sometimes good enough is perfect.

04.21.06

Well I finally joined the modern age and got high-speed internet, nothing like being light-years behind the rest of the world.

04.30.06

I turned 34 yesterday. I couldn't have had a better birthday. I spent the day with my wife and one of my best friends, Dave, riding motorcycles. We went to Tahoe, Truckee (for lunch) and then Virginia City. After all that we ate dinner at The Stone House here in Reno, awesome. It does not suck to be me. Tahoe was beautiful. I mean WOW beautiful. Reno is a kick-ass place to live.

Tony (ex-Twice guitarist) called me today. I am excited and little shocked. I really wanted to maintain friendships with Dave and Tony after I quit the band and now over a year later, I am talking to both of them again. This is cool. I really hope it lasts. I have missed both of them.